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Emotionally Damaged

2012-01-01T19:57:00.003+07:00

So my family will move in to the new house tomorrow. Among all my family members I am the one who like this idea the least. Well our new house is big, nice, and beautiful, but I'm kind of a person who barely get out of my comfort zones. I hate changes. I hate new unfamiliar things. I just love my old house, especially my bedroom, really much. Though it's small and messy and not necessarily Elle Home kinda house, I love it and its comforting familiar atmosphere. All my family members have been busy running back and forth bringing our stuffs to the new house and I'm the only one who stays and watch tv for hours. In fact all I'm doing today is watching Star World and reruns of Kim & Kourtney Take New York. And other thing, I think I'm really emotional today. I don't know if it is because of the moving, but I cried watching Scott Disick being mean to his assistant (or maybe he's just simply a jerk). But I got teary eyed again when a Junior Masterchef Australia's contestant drops her cake and she cries. Well I admit watching little kids cry after they work so hard is kinda heartbreaking, especially when they are Australians (they are just so nice! At least based on what I saw on Masterchef).
After all maybe this is not about the new house but because of PMS instead (darn you period!)
Or maybe this is because of a certain someone...... .

New Year's Eve

2012-01-01T06:54:00.005+07:00

dinner at Mastro steak market

Unlike previous years, my family is staying in Jakarta for new year. I thought my NYE would be another star world marathon but thanks to my aweeeesome family we spent it somewhere else. We grabbed dinner at this steak house then wandering around the city. At 11 we stopped around Ancol with tons other car. We watched the fireworks up to the last seconds of 2011 and it was magical. Well my NYE is not so lame after all :)
Anyway, in this new year, I wish to be better, to study harder, to get to my dream university, to be healthier, to be more grateful, to be happier, to laugh more, to still have my family & friends, and to be with you. ;-) happy new year!

Solitude Afternoon

2011-12-31T18:33:00.004+07:00

So this afternoon I decided to take a quick stroll around the neighborhood with my bicycle. I love cycling especially in the morning. But since my sleeping cycle is quite messed up right now--I slept at 3 am and woke up at 11--it gonna require a little determination to wake up early. So instead I go cycling in the afternoon, with the air breeze and all. Then I went to this new minimarket in my neighborhood which basically like the quieter version of 7/11. I sip a cup of tea and munch some crackers and I feel really peaceful. My family will soon move to a new neighborhood and I realize I will miss this neighborhood very very much. The wide street, the grand entrance, the swimming pool, the trees..... As much as I admire my new house and all, the atmosphere won't be the same.
Well, my mom said we will move to the new house approximately in two days. So if that was the last time I cycled around the block..............I'm glad I did.

hello again

2011-12-30T22:04:00.013+07:00

well hello there. it's been a long time since i blog. months ago i've lost my desire to write and post anything on the blog. so i decided to stop posting purposely. then my life just flows as it is, many upturns and downhills unravel, bringing surprises, laughs and tears all along. so many things have happened since my last post which is the singapore trip with my 11th grade classmates. now i'm in grade 12 and so many things have changed. like how all my friends turn maniacally ambitious to pursue their desired major in sought-after universities. i, myself, still have nooo idea what i wanna major at. probably architect, since i love drawing (but not artsy enough to study pure art) and enjoy perspective class. my dad is like 100% supportive since i'm planning to study at his former campus, ITB. but my mom still slightly teeny-weeny itsy-bitsy secretly want me to be a doctor just like her. so why don't i want to be a doctor? although i dig grey's anatomy, that is just not my thing. plus, i'm scared of blood. that is kinda dumb since i got to see it monthly due to period, but seeing actual blood flowing out of someone is like the scariest shit ever. i cried so freaking loud when we got to take blood sample in 11th grade.
anyway, what brings me back to blogging is actually those things that have happened. at one point i had really so much to tell but don't know to whom. so hence the blogging. well there are a looooot to catch up here but i'm just gonna show you the pictures i took on my last trip to japan. see ya!

this trip is de... wait for it..... lightful!!!

2011-04-22T18:42:00.012+07:00

hi dearest blogmates & readers!!! so long since my last meaningless blog post hahaha. by the way, i just got home after 4 days trip to singapore with my friends!!!! how did it goes? well, that trip makes me go this....

since i'm so lazy to type and so not good at words, i'll just sum up the trip in two words:
it kills!!!!

......literally

ps: elderly-people-running internet speed reaaally makes me lazy to post photos. will share em later. or if i don't, just click my facebook.

red riding hood

2011-03-07T21:20:00.011+07:00

old magazine paper on A4
started to like doing this thing... i don't even know what it's called. cutting-paper-into-shapes-and-put-them-together-art? kinda inspired by liga kitchen tho hahaha.
anyway, the title is not only refer to that crappy thing above. i'm eagerly waiting for the Red Riding Hood movie, which starring one of my favorite actress, Amanda Seyfried.

from what i saw on the trailer, i assume the story is about a girl who is arranged to marry a nice rich guy but she falls in love with another guy. meanwhile in that village, there's a series of murders done by a wolf. *SPOILER* turns out that the another guy is the werewolf.

hopefully hollywood movies will be no longer restricted when this movie comes out :) i think it's gonna be awsum!!!!

:)

2011-03-06T21:51:00.004+07:00

someday.....

2011-03-05T21:52:00.003+07:00

0.3 drawing pen & old magazine paper on A4

.......all these sweats and tears will be paid off.

perfect

2011-02-26T13:08:00.009+07:00

perfect [adj., n. pur-fikt; v. per-fekt]
entirely without any flaws, defects, or shortcomings.

last wednesday, was supposed to be like every other wednesdays: meaningless, and gabut. cause there's no science subject on that day. our schedule goes like this: first period is history, then civil, then bta. i already planned to skip bta and went to canteen when bang hafiz walked in. he's famously known for his magic and hypnotize skill. this should be fun, i thought.
so it turned out exactly the way i thought: we completely abandoned physic and played hypnotize and magic tricks instead. the hypnotizing part didn't work out on me so i just had a little fun time watching him derived my classmates to sleep. then just seconds before the class is over, he started to do handwriting-reading, meaning, he would read our personalities based on our handwriting. since i so love reading people's characters, well, why don't i make him read my character, since i've got nothing to lose anyway.
after analyzing my neat, highlighted, colorized, civil note, he promptly described what kind of person i am:

- hard to make decision
- don't talk much, but once i talk, it could be really deep and hurtful
- see my mom as a very crucial part of my life
- like to compromise
- want to be independent
- good listener
- perfectionist

okay, so i thought. i already figure most of them, so it only means one thing: bang hafiz must be a real psychic.
then the rest of the day went like usual, recess, then religion, then fine art. i always love art, cause i wanted to be an architect and we usually taught how to draw a room or building based on neat perspective, but not this time. we were told to make illustration. of anything. no certain theme, no certain rules to follow. just let your imagination run wild and draw freely.
okay, i can do this, i thought. i love to draw, and this task is just a piece of cake.
but it's not like what i had expected. i spent the first period thinking deliberately of what i want and should draw, how to draw it, from what angle, which type of shading, and another tiny little aspects.
on the other hand, urwah, my chairmate, who also has an artistic blood running on him, nearly finished his illustration. i was like, what? how could he finished it so fast?

me: wah, kok lo cepet banget sih udah selese aja??? gue aja masih bingung mau diapain....
urwah: abisnya lo perfeksionis sih kez, liat aja itu pohon aja dibikin ribet banget, ya rempong lah gak selese selese.

perfectionist. already two people said that about me that day. am i really that perfectionist? then i came to realization: perfect, is, like, the foundation of my whole life and existence. the reason why i complain a lot, the reason why there's so much flaws in my life, the reason why i barely ever finished anything. because i never satisfied. because i like to follow structure and plans carefully. because i don't want to make any mistake. because i always seeking for perfection.
being a perfectionist is like a love/hate relationship. in someways, it makes you to be very careful thus prevent you from making mistakes and failures. but in other ways, it waste most of your life; like drawing a line perfectly to each milimeters long, like not dripping a single drops of watercolor on the moleskine paper, like using minutes just to arranging pillows so you have the right comfort spot to watch tv, like writing civil notes with stabilos and coloring markers and tipp-exing every single unintentional dots on your notes. a perfectionist made every little things that supposed to be easy, complicated. a perfectionist hardly ever finished anything once they thought it was a failure.

life is like a pentium 1 computer. it makes a hell lot of errors. but if it isn't, there will no such thing as pentium 2, 3, 4, and so on. the point is, mistakes improved us. we will never learn anything from perfection.
and like those quotes said, "nothing is perfect." so why waste our time searching for something that doesn't even exist?

life and its strife

2011-02-11T19:21:00.008+07:00

sometimes i feel like a volcano.
everytime i feel the tiniest rush of anger, i keep it to myself, like a volcano keeping its magma. and every other time when some little things go wrong and make me feel like screaming, i'll most likely remain composed and keep the anger to myself. that keeps going on and on and on and there will be one time when i can no longer hold them together and DUAR!!! i burst into tears. like when a volcano is so full of red hot flowing magma that the magma goes up through the pipe and the volcano erupts.
sigh. i really should stop complaining about my life. there are waaay a lot of people who have it waaaaay a lot worse.

so, not like the previous posts which mostly contain my emotional life implicitly, now i want to tell what really going on in my life, like normal people write in their blogs. there are a lot of things that happened but i mostly forget them all. so let me just spilled out the ones that stick to my mind:
1. i just took short vacation to singapore last thursday, thus i wasn't involved in TeSIS presentation which make me have to do it all alone. luckily there are other people who have to do so as well.
2. our homeroom teacher decided to randomize our seating arrangement in class and guess what... i got paired with urwah HAHAHAHA that cracks me a lot. urwah is like the most bullied person in class, in a funny way of course.
3. enter a traditional dance competition last thursday, and i'm not being pessimistic but we're most likely to lose since there are 72 other competitors but yaaah, let's hope for the opposite.
4. burst into tears last night (that's why i wrote the volcano thing, duh.) and when it happens it is so inevitable and annoying and make my eyes swollen so my classmates called my chinese.... fuck u zidni.
5. alhamdulillah my scores are upgrading, weehooo!!! but still remed 1 indicator on chemistry and most definitely to fail on physic. let's just hope i don't get zero.

many other things had happened but i just can't remember it right now........ anyway, since it's friday and today turns out to be fabulous, i just wanna enjoy my life a lot more and be grateful of every second passed. night night! :)

FAIRYTALE IS REAL

2011-02-07T19:36:00.006+07:00

since toddler, we've been shoved by large amounts of fairytales and legends and fables, whether through movies, books, or simply a bedtime story from our moms. all these years we believe, however many mistakes we accidentally make, we will always, ALWAYS, have a happy ending. guess what? that's not real.
no, we won't be awaken by a handsome prince when we accidentally bite a poisonous apple. no, there's no such thing as a fairy godmother. no, there's no magic lamp that will grants our three wishes. because in real life, you gotta work your ass off, and even after that, you might still not get your happy ending. you may sweating, you may cry, you may break down, but still, everything is just as horrible as it first was.
so thank you, fairytales, for putting me to bed, and being a big, fat, liar.

p.s.: sorry for whining too much.... because if life is the surface of the earth, right now, i'd be on the valley.

math test tomorrow and this title has nothing to do with the content

2011-01-30T18:51:00.006+07:00

first, and most important of all, i'm sending my deepest condolences to the family of Imma Nirmala, may she rests in peace. quite frankly, we've never been super close but it still saddens me to see you leave so soon. LDXV has just lost a great friend. :(

Ya Allah takut mati. masih banyak dosa.

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okay so this is starting to be a habit, to blog only when i feel sad and low and desperate. but, well, when we happy we'd be in the mood to do everything, rite? on the contrary of being sad and just in the mood to snuggle in bed and sob to someone. in my case, it's not to someone but to a inanimate online diary.
soooo since my last post, the laptop is still nowhere to be found. whoever took that, i hope you burn in hell. just kidding. but i still feel really bad to my sister, and i'm thinking to saving money to buy a macbook pro for ~~myself~~ her but that probably took a gazillion years since i don't make money and my only income is from my mother which is only rp 150.000 a week. so the only way to get her a new laptop is, apart from stealing, is to beg to my parents. that will took a lot of efforts, like get good scores, study hard, being goody-goody, and basically do everything they want. if you read this, i'm really truly sorry lala :( wish i could make it up to you.
so anyway, back to the topic, i'm not in a really happy phase now. if you see me around, you'll see me all smiley, or you probably caught me eating most of the time, but well i just having a rough time now. yes i know i complain a lot, i'm so ungrateful, and there are people out there who has it worse, but you decide to read this anyway so shut up. first of all, i make a lot of mistakes. and i'm sorry for that. BUT THAT'S LIFE YOU KNOW. i'm fixing that, and trying to not to make one anymore but i'm just 16 after all. second of all, i hate to be told what to do, especially if you don't have authorities, you don't feed me, and my life is not hanging on you. third, i hate to be dishonored. whoever in the world likes that?
lastly, we're just teenagers. admit it, we know nothing about the L word (no, it doesn't stand for lesbian but for love) have fun! let loose! don't get too attached, let alone clingy. trust me, when you're older and smarter, you'll see how stupid yourself to cried head over heels over someone that now you barely care about. i know it's kinda stupid i'm saying this since i myself is in a relationship and i know at somepoint i'll eat my own words but geez, now i am seriously tired of getting attacheeeeddddd. not like i want to break up (well, kinda....) but at least let loose a little bit. stop disputing something over and over and over again. stop bringing back old problems. it's life, we make mistakes. this might sounds so over the top but it really starting to feel like living in an authoritarian country. and sorry to say this but i kinda lost my interest.
well by now you probably figure that the core of my despression is the relationship problem. but don't be astonished if by tomorrow i'm already back being a lovey dovey (which i surely hope wouldn't happen because that would mean i eat my own words). well, i'm only 16, and we're just labile, hormonal teenagers after all. phew.

(500) days of summer

2011-01-16T20:51:00.003+07:00

my absolutely favorite quote so far. great movie, great script, great soundtrack.

rough start

2011-01-16T15:31:00.008+07:00

january 2011 turns out not to be as good as i thought.... confusing subjects, unpleasant people, pointless fights, useless tears, sloppy me. the boiling point is when i stupidly lost my sister's laptop. the world is like cracking down... bobobooommm. but the hardest thing that i have to deal with is my overthinking self. i think too much of everything that it's tormenting. i think too much before i talk so i end up don't talk at all. i think way too carefully before i present myself to people because i'm scared they would hate me. i see the world skeptically. this is sooo sooo torturing. wish i could be more vibrant and spontaneous.
as gloomy as that might sounds, some part of january didn't seem so bad. the highlight was the delightful times with my classmates :D:D:D and Takitri (our school magazine) sold out. so happy knowing i'm a part of it, and therefore i'm so so so proud being a part of Mesis 23 :) never regret joining it, seriously. oh! and we saman 2012 already have our saman costumes yayyyy!!! and i got the purple one. am so loooovin the color.
and anyway, as reluctant as i am for saying this, thanks so much saviq for helping to search the laptop all day he he he so sorry for putting you into this when it should be me who searched it instead -__-. i appreciate it soooo much even thought the laptop is nowhere to be found. :)
by the way, it's been too long since the last time i'm using this little baby! and now i remember the reason why: i accidentally broke the shutter. stupid stupid stupid.

well, i babble too much. i should probably do something meaningful like studying, since now i'm pretty sure i wanna go study at itb after graduating. au revoir, xx.

(both photo credit goes to my sister)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!

2011-01-03T20:02:00.005+07:00

in this brand new year hopefully i'll be:
• taller!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• smarter! need to improve my grades
• sholat 5 times a day & more grateful to Allah
• able to shoo my laziness away
• no longer procrastinating (this is tough)
• skinnier&prettier ;p
• closer to my family
• still in a relationship <3
• surrounded by lovely friends
• smiling and laughing some more
• more creative
• able to blog frequently
• eating healthy foods (no cheetos&coke)
• able to drive by myself
• able to cook edible foods
• using money more wisely
• happy :):):)

22 dec

2010-12-23T15:56:00.004+07:00

all these years that i witness,
taking care of me restless,
with your infinite careness.
now with all willingness,
i want to confess;
sorry for all the reckless.

happy mother's day <3

this gives me goosebumps

2010-12-19T11:14:00.002+07:00

i want to be a lost princess with a railway-long magical glowing blonde hair and on my birthday each year everyone in the kingdom would fly lanterns and i'd be accompanied by a goofy charming thief who helps me run away from my evil fake mom and in the end we would be married and live happily ever after. please?

countryside

2010-12-18T19:56:00.001+07:00

took long ago, short quick getaway to bandung.

ps: i must be so bored i publish 3 posts in a day, yay....

the young victoria

2010-12-18T19:11:00.001+07:00

(after Prince Albert got shot in order to protect Queen Victoria)
Queen Victoria: Why did you do it? So stupid, why did you do it?
Prince Albert: I had two very good reasons. First, I am replaceable and you are not.
Queen Victoria: You are not replaceable to me!
Prince Albert: Second, you're the only wife I've got or ever will have. You are my whole existence, and I will love you until my very last breath.

it is......

2010-12-18T15:44:00.007+07:00

finally. what got us through these exhausting 6 months. the prize of non-stop hard works. the light at the end of a tunnel. HOLIDAY!!!!!
or holy day, since christmas is coming. though i don't celebrate it. so in this winter holiday (though i don't have winter as well) i have many things that i plan to do. like a trip to another country. speaking of another country, after completed watching the full episodes of antm cycle 15 (I love Jane!!!) and have watched Eat Pray Love (with slightly sleepiness and constant inner monologue 'when will this movie ends???'), now i declare that i want to go to Italy. Italy like have... everything. they have the fashion capital (Milan), they have the foods (pasta, pizza, gelato, and thousands other), they have the scenery (the canal city, Venice! and those ruins in Rome!), and plenty other things that i believe just make Italy more visit-worthy.
and when i told my mom the idea of going outside the country this holiday, she promptly started blabbering about how much we spend on building our new house and how i already spent too much money for stuffs and how my sister is going to high school this year and that sure spends a lot and blablablablablabla and in the end all that long time-consuming monologue just means one answer: NO. there goes my Italy...... blublublublublub *sound: toilet flush*
so all i did this holiday so far is......

WATCHING TV

in the morning, at noon, in the evening, at night.... and it goes on and on and on and on and on and on and on........ this is going to be the most boring holiday ever.

*edited* i finally know how to make a gif! all this time! hahaha

t for tests and treasures

2010-12-05T14:07:00.000+07:00

tests
hullo humans!!!
so sorry for the unability to post more regularly. besides the fact that i'm such a big fat procrastinator, i'm also in the middle of test week that consumes all of my spare time. the science subjects scores haven't been published yet, hence my scores are so far so good. though some goes waaayyy lower than i initially expected *cough* tik *cough*.
treasures
no no that picture above is not produced in polyvore. i was stumbling upon someone's blog the other day and couple of clicks brought me to this website named fredflare contains cute unessential things, kind of thing that i usually quick to fall in love with and would buy it immediately (though it's probably going to be useless and end up as a rubbish) and among them all what i love the most is the kate spade 2011 agenda and the lego camera. well i just love gleaming over online goods, let alone the ones that i can't buy. because that only makes the things more desirable. nyamnyam.

so that's all so far. gotta study math for monday, catch u laaateeeer!!! xoxo

ps: besides t for tests and treasures, t also stands for three as in three months monthlyversary!! may the Aphrodite put bless upon us hahahaha ;-)

music&lyric

2010-11-07T21:09:00.001+07:00

Sophie: A melody is like seeing someone for the first time. The physical attraction. Sex.
Alex: I so get that.
Sophie: But then, as you get to know the person, that's the lyrics. Their story. Who they are underneath. It's the combination of the two that makes it magic.

have you ever watched a movie and there's one quote there that keep sticks to your head? this is one of them. and i do think this quote is sort of true.

past, present & future

2010-11-07T15:09:00.000+07:00

my life right know seems more and more obscure. i have no life purpose..... it's like floating instead of swimming, let myself being led by the stream. i often think i haven't gave my life a meaning. i think i haven't accomplished anything at all, and afraid i'm dead before able to do so.
i don't even know what i want to be, or do, as a living. my mom keep encouraging me to be a doctor, but i don't know.... i guess i won't. people said, "do what you like as a living and you don't have to work any single day of your life" but i don't exactly know what i like. i like to draw. but i don't think my parents would ever allow me to majoring at art. after all, most people don't take art seriously, let alone make it as a living. unlike being a doctor or lawyer or else.
move to another subject, when i was 10, i marveled at teenlit books. i thought high school would be that fabulous as illustrated in those novels. i remember i wanted to be tall and skinny and crazy beautiful wearing grey skirt like those highschool divas. but looking at myself now...... i'm more like 10 years old instead of highschool divas. not like i want to be one, it just feels pretty sad to ruin my childhood dream.
despite that, i think my highschool life turns out to be so fine so far. not a novel-material but i'm fond of it. there are of course unplanned mistakes, unexpected people, and unwanted regrets, but what's life without a little mess? ;-)

ps: i'm soooo unorganized and careless when it comes to little stuffs. after the great loss of my yellow ipod, now i also lost my glasses. uh, both are essential :-(
pps: i think i've beginning to lost my creativity little by little. this is terrible!!!!

nowplaying

2010-10-19T22:59:00.000+07:00

these my seem like the usual chat you do on msn. but if you look closely....

i don't know why but i find these soooo funny hahahaha. alay!!!!

sleep day

2010-10-19T15:30:00.000+07:00

taken today at this cute vintage french photobooth, LaPhotoCabine
so today i'm not attending school. it all goes to my sore throat to blame, though i don't mind having a day off in the middle of these hectic weeks. my throat started to itch days ago and the very genius myself ignored it and instead i continuously drank cold water, ate hot food and to top it all i ate glazes of j.co and buah manggis yesterday then my throat feels really sore. today i wake up and my voice has gone.
i think this sore throat is partly caused by fatigue. last sunday i just arrived home after 3 days field trip to Desa Situraja, Sumedang with 8'2012 *hug**hug* it's not exactly a field trip, it's more like the 421 of us were sent to live in a village and making our very own research (that's why its name is TeSIS) and those 3 days have been a highlight of our highschool years, and probably the best. the only disappointment was, 3 days are too short to be enjoyed thoroughly.
back to sore throat, the only thing i do today is sleeping (which you can already figure out from the title), reading novel that i never finish (The Thirteenth Tale, because frankly, the beginning is too slow to sit through), drinking pills and antibiotic, eating between sleeps, and trying to not curse because of this very very very slow internet connection.
over all, i'm bored. skipping school and not be able to wander around is boo-ring. fortunately there are some good news today, like, i will attend the ne-yo/chris brown concert on dec 18. YESSSSSS BABYYYYYYY WOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! been months since i last tweeted to @JavaMusikindo to bring ne-yo here but turns out the other promotor, @sentralive gonna do it. who the hell cares about which promotor anyway??? i'm too happy that i am invincible to the fact that the presale ticket for festival is 750k. well my pops has agreed to buy it anyway. omg i can't wait to sing along to their songs.
by the way, for you who is in a relationship, have you ever feel like there's nothing left to say to each other? and you end up don't exchange words for the rest of the day? but you don't really have a problem. or is it just me? hmmmm.

ps: in respond to the questions in chatbox, i will answer them as soon as possible. btw, it's really nice of you Sheli to mention me at your tumblr :-)

sea-themed doodle

2010-10-02T21:28:00.000+07:00

midterm starts on monday but i'm waaaaay too lazy to start studying now so i just made these instead, just like i used to in the old days.....

all photos are taken on the bali trip. and no personal feelings are involved in the making ;-)

bali!!!!!!

2010-10-02T19:33:00.000+07:00

soooo as i promised you before i'll post some photos and here they are!!!!!

WARNING: this post is a bit narcissist and you might getting sick of my face after reading this.

because day 1 and day 2 are lame, so why don't we just skip to:
day 3: odyssey submarine

day 4: waterbom

AND THIS IS THE SLIDE WHERE I GOT STUCK AT!!! ps: i loathe you.

day 5: watersport (and there might be no evidence of me parasailing but i swear to God i did it)

i'm on the right

i'm the one on the middle. is it just me or does it look like i'm riding a horse?

and some WTH moments

obsession: cheerleading

no, i'm not a scarecrow.

that's a wrap!!!!! (there's tons other photos of course, but it will be a novel long if i post them all.)

sun paradise ☀☀☀

2010-09-16T19:14:00.001+07:00

Heyya all!!! I'm writing this right from my mum's blackberry. It's a long story why I don't use mine. Well not really. I was using it while bathing, and accidentally flunked it into the water. And now the keypad is unable to function. (Yes, I'm cursing you, slippery pink silicon!!!!)
And the reason why I'm titling this post 'sun paradise' is because I'm currently in Bali for 6 days :-D And today's day 5 which means we leave tomorrow. So sad :-(
But I am genuinely happy because I finally can accomplish my deepest possession. Diving!!! And parasailing. And flying fish. Well, water sports. That was hella fun. Will give you photos soon, pinky promise. And yesterday I spent the whooole day at waterbom. And I almost ride all water slide, ALMOST, because I will never ever ever ever ride this crazy steep slide called smash down. And there's one shit happened. I. Got. Stuck. In. The. Climax. Slide. Cimax's a slide that is 90 degrees to the ground so you're basically standing AND sliding and then it goes down then up then down, forming a loop. And I was stuck right at the top of the loop so I glided back down to the bottom. Yes. Life sucks. And the reason why I got stuck is because I'm too light. So to all fat ass in the world, skinny is NOT everything. Who knows where else skinny people may stuck at????
Oh and besides diving and watching Finding Nemo, I also experienced underwater world through the cylinder windows of a submarine. There's this big coral mound with fishes living there. And I spotted some of nemo's friends (yes, Finding Nemo taught me about fishes more than biology does) and saw a sunken ship.
So that's all for now. My tummy's full and my eyes are heavy, it's time for sleep for the sleeping beauty. See ya!

P.s.: sun paradise is not only referring to the fact that I'm currently in Bali. It also describes my mood right now. Guess why ;-p

dream

2010-08-28T13:27:00.000+07:00

maybe i wanna be smart, maybe i wanna be wealthy, maybe i wanna be a princess, maybe i wanna be pretty, maybe i wanna be loved,......maybe i just wanna be happy.

the harder it took you to get, the better the fruit tastes to you like

2010-08-28T12:39:00.000+07:00

mood: excited
it was like forever since the last post. there wasn't really something that worth posting for. well, some are. so i just turned sixteen at 22 (yay!!!!) aaaand i got greetings and gifts and surprise hehe. this week has been a lot of fun, even tho this week i barely never arrive at school on time. and i just passed chem, physic, and math test. chem was easy, physic's not so, and math.... flunked.
what else am i going to say..... hmmm let's see...... ohhh i get more comfortable now. in every aspects. and i won't tell you specifically. it just feels delightful when your life is finally in balance.
and the relevance between the post title and my life, i finally get it that the long road to success is what makes the success feels wonderful itself. :-)

when you grow up, what do you want to be?

2010-08-15T16:11:00.000+07:00

かわいい

2010-08-10T00:17:00.000+07:00

this is sooo not important to blog about. these snacks are just so cute i can't bear to not taking their pictures.... before the shopkeeper approached me and said that taking pictures is forbidden. that's embarassing. should do that more often!!!!! haha.

to get out from your comfort zone

2010-08-09T23:45:00.001+07:00

sometimes we get too comfortable with some things that we are afraid to lose them. we know that we will get a substitute soon enough, but we are afraid that the new thing is not as good as the old one. how if it is worse? how if it turns our world upside down? how if it is something we never imagine before? how if it is actually better?

the question is, are we dare enough to find out?

happiness can't be measured

2010-07-31T19:57:00.000+07:00

i have abandoned this blog for a liiiiittle too long. i always have the urge for blogging but i can't figure out what i want to write, and that keeps going on till days have passed. but here i am again :)
aaaaaaand as you can probably notice, i've (again) change the whole layout theme. hahaha. humans are never satisfied. it's just hurting my eyes seeing too much colors so i get rid off the illustrations and colors and keep it simple. or boring.
no big change happens... just daily stuffs. but i think there's going to be a lot of riddles in this term. let's see wheter it's a good thing or the opposite.
there's tons of homeworks, and as i always am, i never finish any. haha. such a lazy ass. by the way, schoolympic already started. if you don't know what schoolympic is, you must live in the cave. just kidding. click here for details.
last but not least, this is one of tons of sketches i did on holiday. i used coloring pencil.

ps: OMFG LOMOGRAPHY HAS JUST RELEASED THE CLONES OF DIANA MINI! I FEEL LIKE THROWING MINE AND HAVE THESE INSTEAD!!!!!

omg i want the hello kitty... too bad it is only available in korea :''''(

intuition?

2010-07-19T20:49:00.000+07:00

i don't even know where to start. this may be the most personal thing i ever post, since i never post something personal...hahaha.
so, hm. some of you must already know that i just broke up.
there's an interesting story behind it. nobody knows but me. even him.
sooooo, the day i broke up, i initially wanted to give him 3 souvenirs that i brought from usa. a t-shirt, a simpsons pen, and that plastic oscar keychain that has 'best boyfriend' written on it. uhhhhh.
but i end up just gave him the t-shirt and the pen.
and we broke up right at the end of that meeting.
i don't know what held me back then...... intuition? instict? okay i'm not sure why i write this here..... just a funny coincidence story that you can't figure out why.

uhhhhh. ok i'm starting to feel sad and gloom......

some things come unexpectedly.

2010-07-19T19:58:00.000+07:00

ps: add a new link to the 'click-worthy' sidebar. you should check out kokola and the sewing machine. she's a doodle genius.

doodle & things

2010-07-10T20:27:00.000+07:00

well hello..... it's been forever since my last post. i don't know what's going on. apparently i lost my mood for blogging, so i spent the last two weeks (which happen to be an inappropriately short holiday) by watching tv, reading, and swimming + cycling twice a week. and doodling.

sleep with one eye open
i don't know why exactly i doodle that..... oh i do. i was watching bride wars and there's a dialogue when liv said to emma "....if i was your wedding, i would sleep with one eye open." or somekind like that.

things i splurged on lately:
1. camera case for the mighty diana mini
2. the magician by lev grossman. oh the glasses aren't new.... it's there to accompany the book so it won't feel lonely (wtf???)
3. yellow binder and flower post-it to welcome the new term... yay...

so that's all for now. gotta go threatening the headmaster to lengthen the holiday...... just kidding. bubye. smooch.

family doesn't always have the same blood

2010-06-30T13:24:00.000+07:00

they're my hostparents when i was staying at united states. the first picture is becky and chuck elston, with widya, bunga and i. becky and chuck are my hostparents in hendersonville. they have a cute beagle named ellie. the second picture is wanda and le roy rogers, with inas and i. they're my hostparents in knoxville.

i'm amazed how these people embraced us as their own family. they barely knew us, yet let us stayed in their cribs. i think that's really the purpose of citizen exchange. to welcome strangers as your own. and that is really what had happened. we came as strangers, but we left as a family.

layout renovation

2010-06-27T15:24:00.000+07:00

is it for better or for worse?
happy holiday btw ☺

when one door closes, another opens

2010-06-27T01:10:00.000+07:00

so today is the day when our report cards for a year are finally given. i will enter scince class for next year (which is a relief because i still have no idea what i will be in the future), and my rank is unsuprisingly decreasing though my scores are quite the opposite, which means everyone's scores are increasing as well.
the point is, not everyone step up to the next grade.
and i know most of them.
whole my life, i never experienced this such thing. it's just so sad, knowing your friends who have fight with you throughout the year are no longer in the same grade/school. it's just so unfair. teachers always said process matters more than result. we have through the same process, why can we all get the same result?
i know it's not my right to say anything about this. but for everyone who is now failing in the process to achieve something, remember, failure is an event, never a person. Everyone has different qualities that we all should be proud of, even the simple one like the ability to make people laugh. when one door closes, another opens, and God, as always, has a better plan in store.

10 things you may or may not know about me

2010-06-19T23:41:00.000+07:00

1. I love wearing pajamas.
2. I actually wear glasses because of minus and cylinder.
3. I hate bugs! I hate thinking about them creeping underneath my clothes.
4. I read harry potter..... and twilight. and narnia. and i love nicholas sparks and meg cabot. and jacqueline wilson. (okay this list is going to be endless so i should stop here).
5. I drink juice everyday. my mom kinda forced me at first but that became habit soooo yeah, i like juice.
6. I love cabbages. like really, really, LOVE. i would eat them at any kind. even raw.
7. I love to drink strawberry milk. but i'm still shorter than my sister. my YOUNGER sister.
8. If i love a song, i will listen to it every single time. until i get bored.
9. I never sleep alone. I'm always accompanied by..... dolls. and my favourite one is the siberian husky doll (because he has big round cute blue eyes).
10. My absolutely favourite smell in the world is my pink, old, worn-out blanket. my mom always fussy about it being stinky and smells like my saliva.....it smells good for me anyway.

there's still thousands (and maybe unlimited) unimportant fact about me, but you'd definetely get bored if i write them all down (and my hands would't be able to function in the morning), so that's all for now. by the way, don't mind about what i write on the picture! i'm just kidding! (that's why i put HAHAHA on it, hello?)

illustration set: sunglassed girls

2010-06-19T17:01:00.000+07:00

hi! soooo you must remember the 'project' i've told you before (which is not actually a project) so here it is! i initially named this 'summer girls' but since the background pictures are obviously not taken in summer, i changed it to sunglassed girls (since they are all wearing sungglasses, get it?) and the actual reason why i drew girls with sunglasses is....... i can't draw eyes. there i've said it. i can, but they will look funny and more like cat's eye instead of human's.

phew! that's a wrap. wish i'd draw more than this but it will certainly took forever soooo i decided to post these first. maybe part 2? no? hahaha. which one is your favourite? mine is the second, the one who hold red popsicle. my least favourite of course the last picture. i mean, which sane people would go out at night wearing sunglasses???? that's just blatantly stupid. and i hate her clothes (bikini printed t-shirt???? what was i thinking???).

thoughts? ;)

ps: all the background pictures are mine, except the beach volley one. i grabbed it from flickr..... and i forgot who was the author. hehe sorry :p

hello yellow

2010-06-17T22:23:00.000+07:00

well i haven't posted anything in about... what? 3 days? yaaaaaaa i'm really sorry for the lack of posts, tough i'm not sure anyone mind. i was busy laying around my bed all day (yes, that's an activity) and practice saman for a competition which is held this morning. i don't know wether we win or lost. probably the latter. :(
soooooooo how are ya doin everybody? i really don't know what to say. oh, do you watch the world cup? i'm not really keen on football. and what i mean is i can't find what's the fun thing of watching guys running around fight over a ball. tough i know some players, like cesc fabregas..... and i know him only because he's handsome ha ha ha, not because his skill.
anyhow, i'm making some project right now! not really a project tough. just some random drawings which later i realize have something in common and i thought 'well, this is a set of illustration! this is a project' which is actually not and i like to call it 'project' because it sounds cooler than just 'illustrations'. and i kinda perfectionist about it so it took a hell looooong time to finish. anywaaaaay the first picture is just a random (and by random i mean really messy) doodle because i'm not really in the mood. and the second one is a set of origami in narita airport, tokyo. (narita is not as good as i expected. changi is waaaaaay more better).

ps: i've added several links to the 'click-worthy' sidebar and they are truly click-worthy. my new favourite is share some candy.

a great man would have stopped what was wrong, no matter who was ordering.

2010-06-11T23:44:00.001+07:00

so today i went to mall with my mom. i woke up late as usual, and struggled hard to get my lazy butt off the bed. we arrived at about 4, and we decided to watch Prince of Persia. which is uber cool. jake gyllenhaal is the new definition of hawt. and gemma arterton is just so pretty. do you know the amazed feeling you get after watching a very cool movie which makes you craving for a life like that? well i felt exactly like that.
by the way, i ate oxtail soup today. and that robot is not actually a robot. it's a pencil sharpener. oh and today's the opening ceremony of world cup 2010!!! yay!!!! but i didn't watch the opening ceremony. nay!!!! well i'm not a really big fan of soccer, though. it's just that the euphoria is so overwhelming that i got to watch it. everybody said it was so cool. if only i came home earlier!!!!!
anyway, holiday is getting closer. i can't wait for the summer blockbuster movies! :)

ps: the title is a quote from prince of persia.

this may seems cliche but it's true

2010-06-10T19:48:00.001+07:00

.....or even if it's not true, everyone deserves to feel like one.☺

ps: the background picture is my kaleidoscope.

round round round

2010-06-09T23:34:00.000+07:00

i have a weird affection toward round pictures. i think they are more..... sophisticated. keep this in mind everytime i post pictures that are round instead of rectangle.
anyway, final exam is over! yay!!!! though there's still remedials..... and tasks..... well i put them on the very back of my brain. i'll work on them later. by the way, what do you think on the first picture? i kinda experimented on it. which drawings do you prefer? this one or the usual drawing (with borders)? oh and the second picture is the russian dolls... i don't know what they're called. they are my hostparent's, back in hendersonville.
so, how's life treated you so far? mine is kinda upside down. which is normal. i'm not the type of person who likes to mourning over tragedy.... i can be sad of course. but i don't like to show it. i forget about that whenever i'm around people, well, not completely forget, but at least i can laugh it off. and i don't like to tell people about my feeling publicly either. like in twitter, for example. people will ask me 'what's wrong' and then i'll tell them via twitter and everyone can read it.... that's a nightmare. at least for me. anyway, what's your plan for holiday? i don't have any plan yet.... any recommendation? ;)

have a marvellous weekend!

2010-06-05T11:17:00.000+07:00

well time flies that fast. suddenly we're on another weekend. tiring weekdays have gone, now we have two days to relax and prepare for another tiring week. happy weekend! and don't forget to spend it with people whom you love :)

let's pause a second and think

2010-06-04T23:21:00.000+07:00

do you ever think, at one point, that your life has been completely different without you realize? some of the changes are heartbreaking. some are pleasing. some are things that we simply don't care about. how i used to hate veggies and now i eat them just as much as i eat meats. how i used to be careless about everything but myself. how i used to be so whiny and pampered. how my old best friends have become strangers. how people come and gone, just as fast as the wind breeze. we grow. years passed. things changed. people gone. we always complain about everything every single day, that we don't realize time flies by so fast that we might just right at the very edge of our life. remember every sins that you did. every lies, every rebellious acts, everytime you forget to worship God. how much would you give to take them back?
what i'm trying to say is, life gratefully. thank god. be humble. give to the poor. leave good marks anywhere you can, and without you realize, you have given your life a meaning.

raw fish deliciousness

2010-06-02T20:38:00.000+07:00

hi :) it's not a week already, and the exams haven't finished yet, but tommorrow's subjects are pieces of cakes compared to others. still hard, though (what isn't?) but i can lay around my bed for hours today.
anyway, so hungry. and i really, really, really, REALLY craving for sushi. haven't eat them in such a loooooong time. do you know the feeling when you really sick of some kind of food and stop eating it even though you really like it? i think i felt that about sushi. but now that feeling is gone and i. desperately. want. to. shove. sushi. down. to. my. throat. can you buy me some? please? anyone........?

ps: on the first picture.... i don't know the proper way to hold chopstick. it's just the way i hold it, and i'm not really good at it so i guess it's not the right way.

exams in a row

2010-05-28T16:07:00.000+07:00

wish me the greatest luck. i need to make my parents proud. i want to enter science class. i want to be in top 10 class rank (or 5......if possible). please please God make these happen.
anyway, 10th grade is almost over. gonna miss my classmates. gonna miss being a freshman. life goes on, though. all you need to do is adapt to the new situation.

ps: holiday....... could you please come faster?

i scream for ice cream

2010-05-23T19:57:00.000+07:00

remember i said i will make drawing like this in the future? well, i've made one.

my mom said they look like lesbian. no, they're not lesbian. they're just some kind of really really really best of the best friends. like sisters. you know what i mean. oh and the background picture is an ice cream parlor in long beach. i think i've showed you the real picture.

the truth is:

2010-05-23T19:48:00.000+07:00

I'M THE WORLD MOST HORRIBLE DECISION-MAKER EVER.

that's why i never see myself as a leader. i always order the same menu in restaurant, for i don't know what else to choose. i don't know which mall i want to go this weekend. or what musician do i like the best. i'm simply poor at deciding something. i just don't want to lose anything from deciding. i want to have everything. but choosing is a vey essential part in life. life is a choice itself.

always remember this

2010-05-22T20:10:00.000+07:00

hi!!!!

2010-05-22T16:27:00.000+07:00

i know. i know. i'm such a big fat liar. i should have posted last week but too bad school has made me so freakin busy. it's like i don't have weekends anymore! just like today. i supposedly layin around my bed all day long but i had to make my english homework with my group. and now i'm so sleepy because i sleep late yesterday (because i watched 3 episodes of glee! oh gosh i love that show) and i was sleepless for the last two days so i am very very very sleepy now. anyway, i haven't draw anything much. i did draw something, tough.

i drew that with my pencil. on the back of my english task. -___-......

boredom is really the time of creativity. i drew that at superbly boring biology class. talking about biology, i often pretended to like that subject when i honestly not. i hate biology. but i'd like to say my favourite subject is biology because i wanna be an orthodentist (the dentist who make braces. well, you know). honestly i don't wanna be an orthodentist that much. my mom's a dentist and she kinda wants one of her children to have the same profession as she is. and i know orthodentists are usually whealty and i don't know what i wanna be when i grow up so i was like... well, okay.

anyway....... i'm so sleepy. gonna hit the hay soon. arrivederci!

this is so true

2010-05-14T18:54:00.000+07:00

from the notebook doodles

talking about gone. i watcehd dear john for the second time yesterday. crap, i cried like a pig. i hate goodbyes. so much.

ps: i'm not in the mood for blogging... sorry. this week has been very devastating. okay not exactly this week. but today. i want to tell everythiiiiiiiing here but i.. can't. shit. what am i talking? okay bye. (at this point i realize the 'ps' is way more longer than the actual posting. stop talking.)

yesterday.....

2010-05-09T11:28:00.000+07:00

my class after the drama match up. find me if you can! ;p

......was a long, tiring, but superbly fun day. :)
there was drama class match up in the morning. our class's drama was titled gris lune which is french for grey moon. i played as a flirty waitress which is VERY embarassing. but i think our class's drama is the coolest ever in the history of drama. just kidding. then i had lunch with my classmate, and saman practice which i reallly miss (cause i haven't been doing it in like thousands years) and then i dress up (well not really) and get goin' to labs project and met up with my junior high school mates which i really really miss. i literally jumped on them when we met. then i met jodi. haha. of course. first he was on his duty as security yada yada yada and he succeeded to sneak (haha!) from the seniors. and i watched the rest of the show with him. then i was so weary and sleepy so i went home by 11. sooooooooo it was a fun day after all :)

ps: so sorry for the lack of post. okay i dont know whom i talk to because i'm not really sure i have readers, but if i do, i promise you i'll post some more pictures and drawings of mine ~~which are really cute~~ next week. sorry!

polaroid quote

2010-05-05T17:02:00.001+07:00

the quote is from a shampoo ad that i read on marie claire magazine. i forget what the product is. anyway, i think it is a very inspiring quote. difference is good :)

change the layout & the link.... again

2010-05-05T15:39:00.000+07:00

okay. i know. i just easily get bored so i have to make a new one and that happens everytime. so now it's not mon bureau at http://kkkkkezia.blogspot.com anymore but it is cheezia at http://cheezia.blogspot.com.

what is cheezia?
i have no idea.
that word just pops into my mind. i think that's somekind of mix between cheese + kezia = cheezia. it's not that i REALLY love cheese. as i said, that word just pops into my mind and i think 'well, that's catchy' so i decided to named my blog after it.

by the way, today and tomorrow are dayoffs :) yippie yippie bum bum

ps: the header's tape strip is from amazingly talented katrina. i seriously recommend you to visit her addictive blog, puglypixel.

long beach

2010-05-05T12:37:00.000+07:00

ps: i'm too lazy to retouch any of them so sorry if they don't look interesting. :D

i love you.....

2010-05-01T08:28:00.000+07:00

.........nailpolish.
espescially those three colors. salmon, mint, and vanilla. yum sounds like a food fest.

a little thought

2010-05-01T07:50:00.000+07:00

why is everybody moving to tumblr?
tumblr's cool, i made one once. but it's just kind of.... plain. most of tumblogs i've visited are just reblogs. reblogs are cool, especially from famous tumblr which i myself often visit (guilty pleasure) but there's just something about it. it's not you. you don't made it yourself. i know you reblog that because you think it fits you, but i just don't really get the concept. i miss blogwalking. i still do now, but most bloggers whose blogs i often visit are not updating theirs anymore since they've moved to tumblr. well, after all it is me that is weird. i must try using tumblr a little longer before judging. but for now i don't have any further plan to move to tumblr (yes i do have one (or did, because i totally forgot the password and the link))

by the way, will posting the rest of the album later. in random order. do wait :D oh and good morning by the way!

universal studio

2010-04-30T23:17:00.000+07:00

get a magnifying glass and look closer.....

my fortune cookie

there are still hundreds pictures that i haven't posted yet, but uploading image to blogger is taking such a long time which is very lame. i'm going to sleep now because tomorrow is maker (tell ya later about this). will post the rest of the images tomorrow.....or the day after it.......or next week. arrivederci!

long trip

2010-04-30T20:46:00.000+07:00

yesterday i arrived safely at jakarta and was welcomed by it's typical traffic and dizzying heat. but i miss my family and my peers, and the foods, so i'm totally glad. still jetlag, but everything's okay.
there are so much stories to share, so much pictures to show, and i will begin in the next post ;)

party in the usa

2010-04-12T00:00:00.000+07:00

hi!!!!!!! i'm posting right from singapore's changi international airport. it's 23.10 in singapore time, and every normal human is sleeping right now so no one use the free internet access hehe. i'm sooooo sleepy but i decided to sleep in the plane later because it took 7 hours and i'll probably get bored. that's all for now, ttyl, bye! ;)

the princess & the pauper

2010-04-09T00:21:00.000+07:00

as usual, today's subjects are deadly boring. and as usual, i wasted the time by sketching. i drew a sunglassed-bikini-girl in my notebook, and my chairmate said it was really good so i made another. and other. and other. from all sketches i decided these 2 are the best. (the background were randomly grabbed from google. please tell me if those are yours.) making these was hella fun, so expect something like these in the future ;)
anyway, i'll leave on sunday, which means the day after tomorrow. oooooooh i'm so excited yet anxious. i'm surely going to miss my family, friends, classmate, him....... haha. well it's already late i probably should sleep by now, so, arrivederci!

math was boring so i made these

2010-04-02T16:15:00.001+07:00

it's not that i love quoting. indeed i think we should stop quoting and start do something. but quotes are... beautiful. al-quran is so much more beautiful, but i can't do caligraph. maybe i should learn that.

oh and i was soooo hungry i made this:

he said this is cute

2010-04-02T15:11:00.000+07:00

i can't understand myself.

2010-04-01T11:00:00.000+07:00

dedicated for his cat

2010-03-26T19:59:00.000+07:00

Since I'm not permitted to have cats nor another furry animals (cause my mom's allergic of them) I always longing for cats and guinea pigs. They are just so cute. Tha picture above is my boyfriend's cat. Meow meow.

change url

2010-03-26T13:12:00.001+07:00

http://kkkkkezia.blogspot.com

hello it's me, again

2010-03-21T20:49:00.000+07:00

i've come to realization that i post pictures much more than words. because somehow i belive that "a picture can describe thousand words." well not really. i'm just too lazy hahaha.
i often have massive headache lately. like yesterday, when i happily ice skated, migrain attacked me. or maybe that's just a brainfreeze.
bytheway, yesterday when i was just about taking a bath, a spider creeped past me and as you know, I HATE INSECTS. no exception. and that inspired me to make this:

haha but i love charlotte's web!!! i especially love dakota fanning. who doesn't?

bytheway, next week is day-off. i have lots of novels and dvds that piled in my bedroom right now. should finished them in a week. oh, and tomorrow is my 7 months anniversary! :)

diana mini: first roll

2010-03-21T19:54:00.000+07:00

finally, my first roll has completed and i can't help to not directly developed it. so i did. from supposedly 36 exposures, only 14 that turned out good, and only these which i think good enough to put on blog. the results are not as good as i thought they would be, but it is analogue camera after all, so good and (mostly) bad things come unexpectedly. well, practice makes perfect! ;)

ps: my favourite is the last one. oh and i didn't edit any of them.

morning delight

2010-03-21T12:51:00.001+07:00

ps: all photos were taken with my cellphone with retouch there and there. do mind the bad quality ;)

currently reading

2010-03-15T20:22:00.000+07:00

i happen to know the movie first. then i knew that it was based on the novel. so one day when i happened to bought something on bookstore, i saw this book. i think that novels which made into movies are ALWAYS good. so i bought it. and true, as rachel weisz said, "it was a great literature."

the movie hasn't premiered yet so i'm really looking into it. here are some screencaps:

i think this movie will be very lovely (or cheesy). not so many movies that portrayed heaven. another great movies i'm looking into:

Date Night

It's Complicated

The Last Song (still hate miley cyrus, tho)

so what's your movie list? ;)

ps: still hasn't watched Alice In Wonderland. so sad :(

question that left hanging

2010-03-14T22:59:00.000+07:00

taken from notebook doodles.

half-finished

2010-03-14T21:56:00.000+07:00

almost finished redecorate my blog. thinking about adding and deleting there and there, but it almost midnight and tomorrow is efffin monday. great.

so what do you think? i still think that something isn't right. whatever, i'll edit it again next time.

okay enough words........ just want to tell you that i already get my diana mini. 3 words: cute, cute, cute. i think i've taken dozens pictures yet the film hasn't completed. can't wait to develop it!!!!! i'll post the results as soon as possible.

this is not mine. grab it randomly from google. but trust me, i DO have one

and this is the old look of my blog:

kinda miss it. back then i was new to photoshop and very very extremely kampungan... oh well. give me your thoughts, kay? gotta go, arrivederci!

ps: from now on i will put labels on every post. more organized, isn't it? ;p

DECISION MADE!!!!!

2010-03-14T18:36:00.000+07:00

i've decided not to make a new blog. instead i'll soon redecorate this one. might not finish in a day, so i'm sorry for future inconvenience. thankyou.

ulalalala

2010-03-11T22:50:00.000+07:00

HELL YEAH MIDTERM IS OVER!!!!!!!

well my scores aren't too bad, except math. i always suck in that particular one subject. high scool's maths aren't even about numbers anymore. i'm simply not a math person.
BYTHEWAY
I. Got. My. American. Visa.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so the d-day become closer and closer and closer. it is 11th of april, right at my father's birthday. kinda sad, but this is a once in a lifetime experience soooooo every sacrifice will be wothwile in the end ;p
oh, and cameras.
did i already mention about my soon to be DIANA MINI?????????
YEPPPPPP i will get one on saturday!!!! plus flash!!!! ah my life can't be better :)
so, i'm still thinking which camera i'll bring to US. dslr? heavy. diana mini? ugggh so not practical. digicam? umm..... (it's not that i'm a professional photographer. i just want to see the real america and bring it home)
well come my bad habbit....... babbling too much. seriously if i write this much, i think nobody will read this but me. pathetic.
bytheway, i wanna visit Brightspot Market so bad. i didn't have time to visit the x'mas one, so please please please i beg you mercy Lord, i can visit this one. and buy some things. or many. hehe.
well it's almost midnight and tomorrow's friday so i still have to wake up early and go to school. see you around!

ps: i still dont know wether i'll decorate this blog or make the new one. suggestion?
pps: sorry for the bad grammar. practice makes perfect! :p

before sign out......

2010-03-02T23:06:00.000+07:00

PLEASE ALL PRAY FOR MY USA VISA!!!!!!!!

bytheway digi scrapbook rocks. why do i just find out now???? oh and i'm currently in love with lomography. i know that is so last year. but i've just ordered my diana mini last sunday and the store hasn't called yet.

okay so pray both for my visa & diana mini. sleeptight, bloggers. night :*

random

2010-03-02T22:33:00.000+07:00

wow it has been so long since the last time i blogged. well my life has been busier and busier and busier. blame sma 8 for that. i can't even control my own life now. my highschool has sucked it all.
well speaking of highschool, all of 10th graders are already have their own suborganization (although there's a suborganization called non-suborganization, we'll talk bout that later) and mine, is mesis. at first i kinda intertwined between art and mesis, but i thank god for all his glory that i've chosen mesis. why? first it drastically boost my creative side. second it push me to learn more about photography and graphic design. third i gathered with people whose hobbies are similar. well, what could i say? :)
hm i probably should stop babbling. well here it is some crucial moment that just happen to me:
1. just had my 6 months anniversary at 22nd feb. lovelovelove♥
2. currently having my midterm. ps: vermes sucks
3. found am uberly cool blog named pugly pixel and just cant stop clicking 'previous entries'
4. obsessing at digi scrapbook. motivated by certain friends
5. right at this moment googling about scrapbook freebies. havent used anything yet, pray for me to have spare time to use them properly
6. GONNA DO STUDENT EXCHANGE TO USA
7. GONNA DO STUDENT EXCHANGE TO USA....... ok i've mentioned it
8. gonna make my american visa tomorrow. excited yet anxious *finger-crossed*
9. thinking about making new blog that entirely about my photographs and scrapbooks and doodles and anything artsy. any url suggestion?
10. sleepless but cant stop typing. zzzzzz

so that's a wrap. there's plenty you missed but i just can't remember it. gonna hit the bed soon, arrivederci!

i miss LDXV.

2009-11-08T11:37:00.000+07:00

blame twitter!!!!!!!

2009-09-18T13:02:00.000+07:00

hola :)
it's been such a loooooooong time
miss me? no? haha

so my life has been a giant rollercoaster lately
well who said that's a bad thing?
actually it is better than having a flat life like i used to

what i've been doing lately:
1. sleeping around the house
2. bathing once a day HAHA
3. break fasting (is it the right word?) with my friends

then we're gonna celebrate idul fitri on sunday :)
and on tuesday (22sept) i'm going to singapore!!!!

well, i had a very very VERY great life thus far, how bout you?

ps: anyone know how to download e-book to your phone? anyone?

something has changed

2009-09-11T21:32:00.001+07:00

:))))))))

change in the good way, that is <3
ummmmmmmm............i won't tell you specifically
it happened on my birthday
and it's weird, actually
so, a couple days before my birthday (22aug)
i marked the calendar
it is WEIRD since i never did such thing, even on my period
but the weirdest part is
i marked it like this

at first i did it for fun
i never thought that it would really mean something ;)

ich bin keziah!

2009-08-14T22:11:00.000+07:00

eya tadi baru belajar bahasa jerman hahaha pantesan
ohya gue mau curhat

dear diary,

HAHAHAHAHA ANJRIT HUHAUHSHUAHUHAHAH MASIH JAMAN?

eh serius beneran mau curhat

kayaknya semakin tua semakin banyak masalah ya
mending gue muda terus
biar ~~imut~~ nggak banyak masalah

pengen kecil lagi deh :-|

holaaaaaaaa

2009-08-13T22:16:00.000+07:00

long time no post nih

jadi kagok

mau ngomong apa ya

mau cerita di sekolah baru HE HE tapi telat bgt ah udah banyak ceritanya jadi males gue hahahaha. asikdeh di 8 pokoknya. ohya gue ikut saman yuhu!!!!! eh terus tadi gue jajan bakso tusuk yang dikasih mayonaise!!!!!! (penting) eh terus pelajarannya susah gile masa udah ulangan coba.......ngerti aja kagak. doain gue dapet hidayah ya.

bye, muah muah♥

bye bye junior high!

2009-07-02T00:22:00.000+07:00

oke gue tau ini udah telat banget tapi,

gue udah lulus smp! yessssssss dadah rok biru!

ohya terus tadi gue nonton transformer. telat banget deh baru nonton sekarang. filmnya lumayan tapi akhir2nya gue udah rada males abis bingung mana autobot mana deception. terus pas sam nya mati, gue udah mau teriak teriak what the hell what the hell eh taunya masih idup terus dia ke.....................surga robot. lucu sekali.

eh terus masa gue beli tiketnya jam 3 sore dapetnya yang jam 8.30 malem. ketek.

ohya hari ini udah psb sma ya? kayaknya gue daftarnya besok, doain ya semoga masuk 8! eh kalo daftar pake kartu un gak sih? jangan bilang pake............................anjir kartu gue dimana!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

brb cari kartu ya (ha penting bgt)

eh ketemu deh. di tempat pensil he-he-he.

DOAIN KETERIMA 8 YA!!!!!!!!!

alhamdulillah

2009-06-22T14:59:00.000+07:00

nem gue bagus hehe tapi adadeh haha gakboleh sombong, liat nanti ajadeh doain gue masuk 8 ya ;)

breaking the magician's code

2009-06-19T14:25:00.000+07:00

ih ceweknya seksi ya............ HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

akhirnya gue nonton breaking the magician's code. terus setelah tau rahasianya...........alaybgt sumpah ternyata. hahaha terus kan dikasihtau rahasia terbang, ternyata dia tuh digantung pake kabel pake traktor, terus di shootingnya pas mataharinya silau jadi kabelnya gak keliatan. alay.

tapi seru ah nontonnya, gue harus liat yang jalan diatas air pokoknya huohohoho, nonton deh di axn tiap hari kamis, jam berapa lupa gue mehehe kalo gaksalah jam 8an.

ohya besok pengumuman nem uouououououououo tapi gue gak deg2an. besok malah gue mau ke bandung hahahahah kacaow

movies

2009-06-14T12:48:00.000+07:00

gue HARUS nonton star trek!!!! egila chris pine-nya ganteng banget mau mati

eh masa gue udah nonton

no offense ya, filmnya..........ngebosenin. terus pas akhir2nya

to be continue........

bagus sekali.

hula

2009-06-11T15:34:00.000+07:00

cantik kan angkanya ~~kayak gue~~

eh kemaren gue ef kan udah pindah kelas, tapi ternyata gue sama..........guru yang lama, si mr. dan. what the????????????? selama gue di ef baru pernah diajarin dua guru, mr. dan sama si mr. bil ~~ganteng~~. takdir lu deh sehidup semati sama mr. dan.
ohya masa gue lupa nonton breaking the magician's code padahal gue udah sampe tulis di blog nyuruh orang2 nonton...............dasar tolol. YAH JANGAN2 GUE KELEWATAN YANG JALAN DIATAS AIR! yaudalah nasip. pake getek aja lu sana.

ohya selama liburan acara tv yang gue sering nonton adalah:
1. E news & daily 10
2. starworld -> 90210, are you smarter than a 5th grader, blablabla
3. hbo/starmovies

terus kalo tv indonesianya
1. the master

~~~~~membosankan ya

ngomong2 gue pengen deh punya ray ban..........hih ngayal pasti gak boleh

wishlist

2009-06-05T21:04:00.000+07:00

ya Allah semoga..........

TETANGGA GUE ADA YANG MAKE WI-FI TERUS SINYALNYA (sinyal?) NYAMPE KE RUMAH GUE AMIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

atau

SEMOGA ABURIZAL BAKRIE MAU BAYAR TAGIHAN SPEEDY GUE AMIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jah ngarep.

abis masa nyokap gue NGELARANG gue buka youtube cuma gara2 takut tagihan speedynya mahal. what the????????? apa artinya internet tanpa youtube? (alah) tapi untungnya sekarang libur jadi gue bisa diam2 nonton video. liat aja nanti nyokap gue ngusir gue dari rumah gara2 tagihannya mahal...........

TAPI GUE GAK BISA BERENTI GIMANA DONG >_<

back

2009-06-05T13:46:00.000+07:00

halo saya kembali. kemaren abis farewell loh, asik hehehe. terus makanannya enak seriusan gak boong. gue pengen nambah berkali2 tapi malu............o_o

foto2 farewell menyusul ya.

ohya akhir2 ini gue lagi suka nonton E! news. tapi bosen banget isinya tentang jon & kate mulu tiap hari, kalo gak itu ya heidi & spencer. blah.
EH EH GUE UDAH NONTON MTV MOVIE AWARD 2009 LOH! cool kan padahal baru ada di mtv asia tanggal 12 juni. bwekekek iyalah gue nontonnya live streaming. eh tapi di website mtv juga ada kok, nonton deh, klik. terus twilight mendominasi gitu deh, menang 5 award apa kalo gaksalah.

itu menang best movie

ohya ngomong2 gue pindah kelas ef loh! terus diajar sama guru ~~ganteng~~ yang dulu pernah ngajar gue, terus anak2nya lumayan asik, terus banyak ceweknya ada 6 orang, cowoknya cuma 3. yaudalah gapenting, ttyl!

2009-05-29T18:46:00.000+07:00

apasih titlenya (ha? emang ada titlenya?)

eh ngomong2 ini postingan ke 86 lohhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! terus kenapa gitu alay, mending kek angkanya bagus

eh asik ya visitornya udah 1000an! tetap kunjungi blog aq yachhh!! tetap konsentrasi ya! loh emang master mentalist

ohya baju farewell gue udah jadi loh! terus hasilnya persis kayak gini:

yaiyalah tolol orang lu mau jadi madeline o_o

iyaloh serius persis kayak gitu tapi dalam versi lebih abal & bahan lebih jelek. eh gue bikin topinya juga loh! cute loh kayak gue (ha?) tapi gak bakal gue liatin sekarang ah~~~~~kan surprise hihihiihihihihiihi (dih)

yaudalah setres lama2, dadah, i luph yu all (nggadeng)

halo i'm back!!!!!! kayak ada yg kangen ajasih dih

2009-05-29T18:18:00.000+07:00

gila udah berapa abad gue gak buka blog
gak selebay gitu deng

halo! ah jadi bingung mau ngomong apa kelamaan gak buka blog jadi jet lag.........apasih jijik kayak timun (?)
ohya gue juga udah lama bgt gak buka facebook sama msn. kayaknya gue udah ketinggalan peradaban......krik krik.

liburan ngapain aja kes? tidur-makan-nonton tipi (tipi?) ohya gue akhir2 ini merasa sangat kuntet (BAHAHA KUNTET? MASIH JAMAN?) jadinya gue jadi sering berenang gitu terus minum susu biar sehat kuat dan bergizi (?)

eh ngomong2 kebanyakan tanda kurung ya capek ngeliatnya.

tauah nyampah ya gue!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wow tanda serunya mengguncang dunia 0_0 apasih yaAllah gue setres jangan2 gue kena flu babi?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

dih kampungnya berlapis2. berapa lapis? ratus ribuan! emangnya duit

woi udah stop nyampahnya!!!! jayus tau kayak sambel.......loh itumah saus.

IH APASIH JIJIK GUE SAMA DIRI SENDIRI

sumpah ini posting kebanyakan enternya

OHYA NGOMONG2 (yaudah sih gausah di capslock) nonton AXN ya tanggal 4 juni! penting banget! ada gue soalnya! ya enggaklah >_< ada itulohhhhhhhh Breaking The Magician's Code. taugak? jadi acaranya tuh ngasihtau rahasia trik2 sulap terus gue liat iklannya ada yang jalan di atas air 0_0 WOWOWOWOW GUE HARUS NONTON BIAR BISA JALAN DIATAS AIR BIAR BISA KE BALI JALAN KAKI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! apasih alay kayak lobang idung

udah ah capek kebanyakan ngetik, ttyl

ps: foto gue yang di sidebar gue hapus ya (siapa juga yg mau liat) biar keren kayak james bond (apasih)

capppppppek

2009-05-22T21:57:00.000+07:00

yesterday: seharian nggak dirumah. serius. dari jam 10 pagi sampe jam 9 malem. kemana taugak? pim. sumpahya bosen lama2 ke situ mulu........haha lagak lu macam penghuni pim
today: nonton inlabs bwekekek bentar doang sih tapi capek ah hahaha dasar pemalas -_-

terus besok mau ngambil baju farewell di mayestik tapi kayaknya gak jadi deh abis gak ada yg nganter gitu hu

eh sebenernya gue pengen masukin foto tapi males kapan2 aja ya dadah

bonjour!

2009-05-21T08:41:00.000+07:00

bangun jam setengah 6, lumayan rajin tuh buat ukuran hari libur. terus bosen kan yg lain msh pada tidur, yaudah maen hp aja sm ipod terus guling2 dikasur
jam 7an gitu bosen terus tiba2 pengen maen sepeda, gatau kesambet apaan tapi udah lamaaaaaaaaa bgt gue ga maen sepeda. eh si bimo jg udh bangun terus dia mau ikut, jadinya kita berdua deh. tadinya mau sama lala juga tapi dia alay sih. ha candabgt. sepedanya cuma 2 yg bener, yg dua lagi bannya bocor saking lamanya gapernah dipake -_-
terus kita keliling2 sampe kompleks yang belakang, terus berenti sebentar di taman buat main gelayutan sama ayunan, terus muter2 lagi & balapan sampe rumah (eh gue menang loh)
nyampe rumah laper kan, terus makan sereal sama susu hahaha udah lama bgt gue ga makan sereal. gue makannya coco crunch terus bimo cookie crisp hehe yummy :3
sambil makan sereal kita nonton phineas & ferb, bener2 deh hari ini gue berasa kembali ke masa lalu, main sepeda terus makan sereal sambil nonton kartun ;)

I will probably miss the morning like this <3

copy-paste hehe

2009-05-20T23:05:00.000+07:00

The rules:

1. Respond and rework: answer the questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own invention, add one more question of your own.

2. Tag eight other people.

What is / are your current obsession? sma 8, amin

What is your weirdest obsession? fly -___-

What are you wearing today? pj's

What’s for dinner today? salmon sashimi & unagi roll

Makeup kit you can’t live without? body lotion. is that even a make up?

What would you like to learn to do? graphic design

What’s the last thing you bought? pringles onion flavour

What are you listening to right now? jai ho!

What is your favorite weather? humid

What is your most challenging goal right now? nem >36

What do you think about the person who tagged you? no one tagged me, blah

If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? beverly hills

What would you like to have in your hands right now? money, loads of money

What would you like to get rid of? kecoa & cicak

If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? cannes, france.....where the film festival is being held right now muhahaha

Which language do you want to learn? french & dutch.

What do you look for in a friend? trustworthy , dependable, mature yet funny :D

Who do you want to meet in person? nabi muhammad

What’s your favorite type of music? anything sounds catchy

What's your favorite hollywood actor? ryan eggold, ed westwick, blake lively, jessica stroup, chris pine

What is your dream job? graphic designer, or orthodentist

Any favorite models? gemma ward, alexa chung, miranda kerr, analeigh (antm cycle 11)

If you had £100 now what would you spend it on? vacation, shopping & donate to charity, maybe

Favorite song? you and i both

Fashion pet peeve? anything bling

Do you admire anyone’s style? corry kennedy, alexa chung, a few of lookbook users

Describe your personal style? bold color

Last fashion magazine you read? teen vogue....which is not even mine ;)

Last thing you saw on TV? are you smarter than a fifth grader?

What do you want to do now? swimming

i tag: anyone?

lately

2009-05-20T22:33:00.001+07:00

current celebrity crush: ryan eggold! wowowow (tapi malu ah naro fotonya, kapan2 aja yak heheh)

eh masa ya dua hari ini gue sushi marathon loh (apacoba) iya jadi gue makan sushi mulu, ha-ha dasar maniak. eh terus masa gue lagi sakit tenggorokan. gara2 apa coba? mc flurry. laknat banget sumpah.

ohya, baju farewell gue jadinya tanggal 23 mei sabtu besok, doain hasilnya bagus ya amin amin amin.

terus akhir2 gue lagi suka buka2 lookbook.nu deh hahaha eya eya sok fashion, eh tapi lumayan banyak ya orang indonesianya......terus ada orang indonesia yang cantik gitu deh haha jadi naksir >_< ya kagaklah sinting

eh ngomong2 undangan farewell-nya coooool hehe good job, guys :3

time flies pretty fast....

2009-05-20T22:25:00.000+07:00

hari ini hari terakhir gue duduk di kelas, pake seragam, hari sekolah, terus sama temen2 sekelas..............cepet banget ya kayaknya, yaampun padahal barusan aja masuk kelas 9 (alay bgt lebay)
enak sih libur, bisa bangun siang apalagi gue yang rumahnya jauh amit2 yang harus bangun jam 5 kurang, tapi kayaknya gue bakal kangen sekolah >_<

ha kerajinan lo kes

tapi emang bener!!!!! mungkin pertama2nya gue hura2, bangun jam 12, mandi seminggu sekali (ya gak gitu juga sih) tapi paling lama2 gue bosen. terus lumutan dirumah. terus nyampah. mana dirumah pasti bakal sepi bgt lagi. terus gak liburan kemana2. ha mati aja lu.

ah pengen ngulang lagi...........

eh enggak deh ralat capek gua ujian mulu. tapi pasti bakal kangen labschool terutama ldxv <3 <3

..............but life must go on, right?

ujian praktek

2009-05-11T17:47:00.001+07:00

hancur. berkeping-keping.

1. seni musik
- ansamble: main suling, fals
- nyanyi: lagunya tanah air. bayangkan. tinggi banget nadanya.

2. bahasa inggris
dapetnya yang susah, terus salah lagi dikomentarin sama bu pur

besok,
1. tik. mampus. gue gakbisa sama sekali.
2. bahasa indonesia. ha?pidato?

tauah mana hari ini gue sakit perut banget ah dasar hari sial!!!!!! eh tapi tadi gue udah jait baju buat farewell, kemaren minggu gakjadi soalnya tukang jaitnya tutup. mana jaitnya di pasar, terus ujan, becek, bau ketek. hhhh