intuition?

i don't even know where to start. this may be the most personal thing i ever post, since i never post something personal...hahaha.
so, hm. some of you must already know that i just broke up.
there's an interesting story behind it. nobody knows but me. even him.
sooooo, the day i broke up, i initially wanted to give him 3 souvenirs that i brought from usa. a t-shirt, a simpsons pen, and that plastic oscar keychain that has 'best boyfriend' written on it. uhhhhh.
but i end up just gave him the t-shirt and the pen.
and we broke up right at the end of that meeting.
i don't know what held me back then...... intuition? instict? okay i'm not sure why i write this here..... just a funny coincidence story that you can't figure out why.

uhhhhh. ok i'm starting to feel sad and gloom......